With or Without You

Ours was a love that could not be understood. Not by me. Not by you. Not by anyone.

We got lost in a moment that could have been an eternity. Oh, how we were wrong…

I wish I could go back in time and rip my heart out. To prevent me from feeling. Or simply to prevent me from having blood and hormones pumped on to my brain.

But I loved you. Hell, I still love you!

However, ours was a love that could not be fulfilled. As we are hungry, desperate beasts. We would have torn each other into pieces of nothing, physically and mentally.

I know you loved me. And for all I know, you still do.

But we are here. And we can live. With or without one another… We can live.

I really wish everything had turned out differently. But I suppose it’s romantic thinking.

I would have given you everything. I would have been your support. God, how I was wrong…

I miss you. Unfortunately, I still do. Or fortunately… I am not sure yet.

But despite my efforts, you would never choose me. And I can’t live like that. So I live. Without you.

I will not apologize for following my path. I will not apologize for shit! (Not even loving you…)

But I can live. With or without you.

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