Sleepless nights
Endless fights
With myself and my thoughts
And my past
What I can recall
And what I can’t when I thought I knew it all
Your face, your words
Your hurt,
My pain, my worth
All hurts
Dark circles in the early morning
Dizzy, dizzy feelings
And synaptic pulses
Shivers and muscle impulses
I awaken from an insomnia
That never shutters
Late night convenience store
For dreams inexperienced
I knew I dreamt of you
Split second of a drowsy longing
And I forgot you again
Again and again
I remembered you too
A clandestine kiss stolen in the Summer haze
There go the olden days
Sips of stale beer
And staler conversation
Dusty thoughts
Flowing in the night
Dawn light shines through the blinder
Nightmare reminder
It’s Monday again
And again and yet again
Stranger’s music comfort
Passion never reciprocated
Unrequited lusts
And isn’t it all a bust?
Grind, grind and grind a brain
It’s all for the main
Misunderstanding of the basic
Fundamental respect cracks
And love dies
It perishes with words
And actions and inactions
Dissatisfaction of the wild
The evening threatens
No, it terrorizes
Domesticated eyes
Refuse to shut
Slepless nights
Endless fights
Again and again
A memory resurfaced
And the rabbit hole calls again
The abyss looks back at me
And I allow my body to fall unto it
It hurts, it all hurts
City lights shine brighter from the inside
And yet I won’t come out
I am consumed by the abyss
Dizzy, dizzy feelings
Dust in the breeze
Light shines against the bedroom wall
It’s morning again
And my pillow craves my face
And my eyes shut
And my low heartbeat
I can’t remember much else
Your words, my worth
I question it all once more
And it’s as deep as my imagination
I can’t cover it all now
My face rests miserably
My temple pulsates
Hot and heavy and menacing
I need an hour
And I will be fine for the day
But twenty-or-so hours aren’t a thing
When the years come back for you
I try to forget
But memory still serves
Full course dinner
Dessert to keep you hanging
They don’t want to let you go
I breathe, I breathe
And I try to remember quiet
And it is fleeting
Floating in the wind
Butterflies in the Spring
Bees in the Summer
And the flowers grow and shine
And dance
And I’m home again
Eyelids and body draw down
Waters of a steady river
Cool breaths off my chest
I rest
I rest for the next sleepless nights.
I rest for my thoughts, my words and my worth.
I rest for love, for lust and for pain.
Dizzy feelings, memory, bees and flowers in the Summer.